Life..as much as i can understand..

I have been through ups and downs with my family within the past 2 years. my paretns have recently gotten a divorce after 20 years and now my dad is living in Colorado with his new girlfriend and her kids. I am mad at him because he left this famliy for a new family so now i dont feel like i am his daughter that the other daughters have taken my spot. I wish i could have answers to my questions he has asked.
but my mom has the strongest heart i have ever seen. I just wish I could make things easier for her and find a money tree. with my dad not paying child support she is struggling and i wish i could help. I have lost touch with my dads side of the family they have kinda lost touch and then they have accpeted these new family memebers but shoved my brother and i out. i know that life isnt fair but i am ready for it to be easy for once! somedays the only person that keeps me sane is my boyfriend of 5 years. he is the greatest person ever! i couldnt imagine my life without him! he has been by my side through every hurtle and obsticle i have gone through.

When is life going to give me a break! i know that things could be worse and i have no clue how some people do that but im just ready for something good to happen for once~ im iready to call my mom with good news and not saying i need help paying a bill.. were just ready for something new!!